I think Meiling (and her skills) totally rocked my life on the Teachers' Day celebration :D Super touched to the max. I can easily win the 'Most Enthusiastic Student' award and I swear that 31st August is one of the best day I had this year (:D) even though the reasons behind it can be abit too random for some, but I have always been the excitable sort anyway.
No matter how much I enjoyed my morning, some irritants have to ruin the supposedly perfect day of my life. I affirm the fact that I'm easily annoyed because the events that spoilt my day, have pretty much nothing to do with me, technically speaking. Maybe it's the people who were involved in this unfortunate occurence made me realise how my patience is running low with them.
I'm not going pretend that I'm all emotionless and heartless to all the situations that I face and find myself planted in (even though there are really some circumstances that I'm quite apathetic to), because it always disappoints me to realise that I'm experiencing some form of communications problems with a friend of mine (or at least someone I thought was a friend) over a certain advent of the most unfortunate. Whatever happened was not regrettable, at least to me, but the outcome of it was quite disastrous.
I've always been the person who's always nice enough to treat people I know with a certain high level of enthusiasm but when I don't feel the same coming from them, it shuts me off completely. I know that some people are just not very warm-hearted by nature, but one can always feel the genuineness you are getting in return.
It dismayed me that whenever I tried to recover the friendship that we once had, all I've gotten are your pretense and hypocrisy and contradiction. I once thought you're someone whom I thought was understanding, sympathic and wholehearted. I've always thought that it was my fault that had resulted that what we are. But right now, I'm cringing at my stupidity of how deluded I can be. I finally understand that maybe, I've never knew the real you and have never gotten the chance to anyway.
I realised that it might just be your capricousness that sets you and the rest of us apart. If you think that you've done nothing wrong and this is exactly what you had always hoped for, then there's nothing much I can do. Because if this is how you really feel, then you're not worthy of my time and effort anymore.
Today started really nice, it was really cooling (more like freezing I know) but I totally embarrassed myself infront of Mr. Joseph Ang and a crowd before the start of the morning assembly. So he was at the back where we all are, telling us to move infront. And since I was facing him with my back facing where we were supposed to stand, I made my way to the location without turning around (which means I'm walking backwards lah).
While walking, I tripped over some foot which until now, I don't know whose it belonged to. So while I was about to fall flat on the ground (still facing the Math teacher and the crowd I might add), I managed to steady myself. My basic instinct was to turn away and walk as calmly, yet quickly, as possible to our assigned area so that I'll be able to make a quiet exit.
Meiling was beside me, helping me to cool down, while informing me that my face has gone red again, for the 3847654068th time this month for some strange but not unknown reason. While the Math teacher prompted me to be more careful, Jolin and Rachel raced to my side, asking me loudly whether I'm okay or not -.- While under normal circumstances, I would be really touched and grateful if they asked me the same question but that was not what I would call "normal circumstances". And cham, everyone who was near the vicinity knew that I tripped and nearly fell D: So much for making a quiet exit.
Okay, so 99% of the people wouldn't be able to understand the adverse impact of me not being able to make a quiet exit because they don't know the reason behind it but still.. Sigh. Meiling and Rachel understand can already. Sigh sigh sigh ):
Anyway, I need to buy the navy bluey greeny top I saw with Ruiqi when we went to Bugis a couple of weeks ago! It's a need now, not a want D: Ahhhh!
P.S. I know it's quite an abrupt change of topic for the few previous paragraphs. And my expression of unhappiness might not be able to be comprehended by some because I have a high tendency of writing in Middle English when I'm not in a particularly joyous mood. Which means, to ignore spellings and tenses and grammers and whatever mistakes I can make.
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